Every new Mom to be has some idea of what they specifically want for their children. How they want to feed them, clothe them and teach them and generally go about raising them. When I found out I was pregnant, I was both overjoyed and in shock. My spouse and I had made the decision to start trying for our first baby and four months later…Voila! Positive pregnancy test!
I still remember it vividly…I was at my place of work, training a new staff member and I felt…different. I went and bought a pregnancy test and in my backroom office…anxiously awaited the results. I knew without looking that I was pregnant. I don’t know how…I just knew. I knew my life had changed that day…forever. When I knew for certain that the little stick was positive…I called my spouse and told him, he was going to be a Daddy. The line went quiet…and then a trembling excited voice whispered across the lines “I’m going to be a Dad?”
From that moment…we spent countless hours planning every detail of our little bean’s life. How we were going to parent, what kind of parents we were going to be? Baptized or not, raised bilingual etc. The five decisions we decided were non-negotiable, are as follows:
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No TV
We had decided that in this day and age with so many kids watching TV and playing video games and so little of them outside, enjoying the sunshine and nature, this was top priority. But…it was the first of the ultimate fives that we broke. After weeks of little to no sleep, severe exhaustion and a cranky Mommy and Daddy…we accidentally discovered our child, our little bean, was a huge fan of “Property Brothers”. For the first time in weeks, we got a little break. He was content in his baby swing watching the Brothers change people’s lives and homes. Little did the Brothers, Johnathan and Drew know they were changing our lives as well. We felt a little guilt at first, but as we were able to get a little bit done around the house and eat and relax, we accepted the TV distraction for the moment, and promised ourselves we would offer it in moderation as our bean grew older. After all…it offered us salvation in our babies first few weeks of life.
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Homemade Meals
Another of the big ones…we had promised ourselves in order to save money we would make all his meals at home and freeze them and take them out when necessary. But, with the onset of teething and I was still breastfeeding. I was getting absolutely no sleep again. I felt like a zombie most days and survived off my one cup of glorious coffee a day. I attempted a few times to make my little bean food. But after getting frustrated and the little guy, not being patient while Mommy made his food, I gave up. I made peace with the fact, that I was still breastfeeding and that the baby food on the baby shelf…wasn’t that bad.
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Cloth Diapers
Expensive as heck… enough said. We were on a tight budget. We just could not handle the start-up costs of cloth diapering. Even though we wanted to and we knew in the long run it would be cheaper versus disposable diapers. Maybe the next baby?
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In His crib by 3 Months
This one has been the toughest, on me, both mentally and physically. I was emotionally and physically ready for our little bean to go in his crib at 3 months. A few days before his 3 month birthday, he decided to learn how to roll. We were elated and excited! Our first big milestone! The day of his 3 month birthday, I made sure his nursery was all set up and ready to go. I was nervous and scared to put him in his room that night. My spouse was super supportive and went off to work that day. I logged online to my ultimate horror, my worst fear popped up in my news-feed on Facebook.
A 5 month old baby had rolled over in their sleep and suffocated. The parents, despite having the monitors on, did not hear the baby or know there was tragedy awaiting them that morning. My heart broke into a million pieces, I cried for them and their baby boy, who had just learned how to roll. I was inconsolable for hours, I held my child and rocked him and snuggled him. I wouldn’t put him down. I kept imagining it was going to happen to me. I refused to put him in his own room and months later, he’s 8 months in two days. He still co-sleeps with me and my spouse. That particular story destroyed all and any confidence I had in putting my son in his own room. It is a great fear of mine and my spouse’s that we will not hear him; you see we both are partially deaf; we have some hearing ability but not full 100%. I don’t know at this point when I will be ready, hopefully by a year.
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Join Mom Playgroups
I promised myself that to help pass by the long mat leave I would get out and join as many baby groups and mom playgroups to get out be active, to be social and to learn my new town. My spouse recently, got a job in a city 3 hours away from my hometown and family. I have been out a few times, I have connected with one mom, and she’s fantastic. But alas, as it is summer, everyone is always busy and vacationing. For the most part, I’m normally very social. But at the mom groups I find it awkward and uncomfortable. Everyone knows everyone and I’m the new girl. I’ve just found that as a new mom, I’m adjusting to my role as a mother and as a spouse with a baby, and trying to maintain a romantic relationship as well. So, trying to go out and meet new people…some days is very exhausting. I just don’t go out as much as I like. It is getting better though; my confidence grows with every day, as I grow more familiar with my surroundings.
As you can tell I really didn’t stick to any of them and all of them provided me with a clear picture. It’s okay to have goals or ideas of how to raise your child. But, don’t feel obligated to stick to them, if they don’t suit you or your lifestyle, or for that matter your baby. I think as a whole, new mothers try to do everything in their power to be the perfect mom, or to be different to how they were raised themselves. But in the end, all that matters is that your baby is loved, fed and safe. Doesn’t matter what we do, make, use or buy. In their world, it’s no different, brand means nothing. We are their whole world. So, I guess what I’m saying is…don’t be too hard on yourself on the choices you make or didn’t keep. They love you either way Mama!
Everly